Uno.

Single hood is one which I can resemble to as one hell of a roller coaster ride. It is usually a fast paced lifestyle. The ups and downs are experienced but never stayed on for even just a fraction of a second. The twists and turns are negligible. The excitement and adrenaline, undeniably enjoyable.

But still, even as I describe this as such, there are going to be times wherein you will feel a certain lag. Probably the time where you have to fall in line again, just to be able to experience the ride of life once more. People may admit it or not, but once you step into this phase, melancholy and a pint of jealousy, when seeing those in love, start to creep in. The want, or probably even the feeling of it becoming a need, to get back on the ride would probably be a daily yearning. But I tell you this, STOP. Just stop and think. Put everything on hold and focus on what has become of you. Realize that what you are doing is a rather faint solution to the problem of your past. The roller coaster is a cycle, don’t fall into a routine and forever lose yourself. Disillusioning ones self by means of engaging into various activities, as a way of telling yourself that everything is fine, is just an act of running away from all that has hurt you. The past, merely just a memory to itself, has already done so much damage to your being. By running away from it, the more it grows on you, giving it as sense of triumph over you. Stand up and fight! Don’t let yourself get beaten up by something intangible with no capacity to think on its own. The past and the emotion are a deadly combination, that’s true, but these things you would have to face and accept to get it over with. You cannot force yourself to get over something very fresh within you, something that is still in your system, something very real. Sadness, depression, misery, all a reality that come our way which we have to welcome as a step in reaching freedom from the binding past. Wallowing yourself with gloom and not having the will to get back at all is a completely different thing. Emotions cannot be given a deadline, true, but changing your perception is another. The will to get back and start again is truly the greatest choice we make everyday. Drawing the line between showing how hurt you are for the purpose of releasing what’s inside (or simply being true to yourself) and starting to view misery more a lifestyle than just a face in your life, is what we ought to discern. The measure of a strong person is one who can stand up to whatever has hurt him and face the challenges that may come his way and not merely a show of strength by ignorance of the problem.

Enjoying the roller coaster ride to escape the reality in your life.
Enjoying the roller coaster ride as the reality in your life.
Two complete different things,
But still, the same roller coaster ride.